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Azimuth Check:  Yup, Still Lost

Azimuth Check: Yup, Still Lost

Here I am again. Feeling torn, frustrated, and bound. This is me. This is my life. I’m not happy unless I feel inhibited by my organization. And this is me without any direct subordinates. It’s confusing because it’s from both below and above that I feel frustration. And being flippant obviously only makes things worse. … Continue reading

Annoyance ~ At Who? At Me Maybe.

Annoyance ~ At Who? At Me Maybe.

So here I am again. Frustrated. Grasping at straws, trying to blame my problems on anyone but myself. My boyfriend echoed my mother tonight when he told me I needed to get adequate sleep. Literally by end of the conversation he was seriously suggesting that my stress at work was made worse by my lack … Continue reading

Just Another Day

Part of me wants to send a snarky retort. Part of me wants to write a lengthy apology. Part of me wants to curl up and sleep until this whole thing blows over. I guess, like any other event in a relationship, my boyfriend and I are going through another first: 22 February 2014¬†First ‘more … Continue reading

News for January 2014

News for January 2014

Chalk up two more surfing locations for this girl. While I did not hit up all my surf camp goals (did not go to Canary Islands or Bali) last year, I did get invited to a wonderful opportunity so now I can say I have surfed in the following locations, in order: North Shore, Oahu. … Continue reading

Where Are We on Those Goals?

This hump-day, I figure I should pause to contemplate some of my goals. Physically:¬† Last week I only ran 9 miles, but I walked like 6 on the weekend (yay Berlin!). I think I want to get a fit-bit, keep aiming for that 11.5 miles a week, and try to increase my daily movement. Today … Continue reading

Monday: Lessons Learned in Random

Today I learned I should have at least two routes to work planned out. The highway near my apartment was shut down and the reason was grisly. Head-on collision between two trucks resulting in fatality. Unfortunately, this meant huge traffic jams in the surrounds small towns. I also learned what an ouvert is in lingerie. … Continue reading

Just Feeling Plain Beat

Just Feeling Plain Beat

I feel like I’m in crisis mode. I feel trapped in a dead space in my career. I feel almost zero motivation. I have no set goals. It’s as though there is a Jonah in the crew of my heart. And the winds are dead until I find the responsible party and throw him (or … Continue reading